I remember when I felt like I truly couldn’t do it anymore. The reality is, without You I probably couldn’t have. You carried me in the hardest moments & held the pieces of my heart together as it was crumbling. I could no longer make it on my own strength. 

I remember the days I prayed so hard for You to just take all of the pain away— to not let me feel anything anymore. I wanted to be numb to my emotions. 

I remember begging for You to bind up my heart because I felt like it was going to literally fall out of my chest. 

I remember when You were the only one I felt like I could talk to. You were the only one who truly understand where I was at internally. I could never find the words to accurately describe it to anyone else. But that’s the beauty of You & I’s relationship. I don’t even have to say a word. You just know. 

Before all of this, I never fully depended on You. Now, I can’t imagine it any other way. You are my very best friend. Looking back on the past year, I am absolutely in awe of Your faithfulness to me. You made a way when there was no way. You healed me from a constant pain & sadness that I thought would never cease. It’s so beautiful to see all of the seemingly impossible prayers that You have answered in hindsight. Now, here I STAND (finally, I can stand) joyful, gracefully inspired, and LIVING— not in the past, but in the here & now. I don’t know why You are so good to me, but I will eternally be praising You for what You have done for me. 

Moral of the story: God will never leave you in your brokenness. He is your protector, rescue, and the ultimate healer. You just have to give Him time. It will be so worth it, I promise. 

Xoxo